—Because Of The Shame
I wrote “Because Of The Shame” for my friend CC who was murdered, actually 2 years ago exactly to this day. Well, I wrote it for her and her mother. I hadn’t seen CC in a couple years when I got word she had been killed. CC and I used to work at the same bar, she was a bartender, I checked I.D.’s at the door and mopped the floors, cleaned the bathrooms at the end of the night. Most of the time we wouldn’t finish up until around 4AM but we’d still hang out for a couple hours after, go back to my house and listen to records, smoke cigarettes, have some drinks, just talk.
I used to have her name tattoo’d on the back of my leg but had it covered up a few years back. She had my name tattoo’d around her wrist. At the funeral her mother asked me if I still had the tattoo. I felt horrible having to tell her no. Later she took me aside and told me that CC thought the song “Thrash Unreal” was written about her, that it had hurt and embarrassed her, that they had talked about it as recently as a week before her death. She made me promise on the spot to write a song that made up for it. So I didn’t sleep for about a week, until I wrote “Because Of The Shame”.
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